Mom: Your sister got to go home at 2:00 today (because of weather, she's a school teacher).
Me: Yes, I saw that. I considered texting her to say that I got to be home all day but thought she wouldn't appreciate it.
Mom: Probably not.
Me: Although, I imagine that if she spent a few days here taking care of babies she would be eager to return to work.
Mom: She probably would. I know I would.
Gee...thanks mom. To be fair, I know my life isn't ideal for many. That may be why I know so few stay-at-home moms. It's hard, and not just financially. I recently read an article about the hardships of staying home all the time. You can find it here. What I got from this piece is this: We are trying so hard to be the perfect wife/mother that when we fail, or feel we fail, especially when comparing ourselves to others, we come down so hard on ourselves. Yes, there are so many blessings to this lifestyle, but the hardships are very real and sometimes we need help, in whatever form we can find.
Zach was home most of the day today, doing homework and getting ready for a banquet tonight at the Wesley. He was a great help, holding a baby when I just didn't have enough hands or secure places to place one. Before he left, carting his white elephant gift and fixings for enchiladas, he kissed me on the forehead and said, "Rest if you can. You've worked hard today." I LOVE that my husband understands that my days are spent busily taking care of my family, and other babies on certain days, and doesn't take it for granted. I'm blessed by that.
So, here it is the end of the day, the kids are asleep, the house quiet and I finally have time for myself. I could busy myself wrapping the pile of gifts hiding in our closet or cleaning the house again, a never ending job. I choose not to. My sanity and my body demands rest. For me that means three things. First, a bubble bath. Second and third, a cup of Celestial Seasons Sleepytime tea in my favorite mug and my Nook, as I sit propped up on my pillows in my nice warm bed. Awwww.... A breath of renewal. The really hard days also may require a Patty Griffin radio station on Spotify.
This bedtime routine is so special to me that I actually wrote a note of appreciation to the Celestial Seasons company, thanking them for contributing to my ability to continue doing what I do. I got a nice letter in response and a couple of coupons for more tea. Now I feel convicted to make deliberate efforts to tell others that I appreciate them and the things they do more often.
I love this cup.
Truth be told, I live a blessed life. I love being home with my children. I enjoy caring for the other two babies. I like having the flexibility to pack up and leave town on a Monday, like we did last week. And lets be honest, if a cup of tea and a book can bring sanity to my day, it's not all that bad.
Thanks for reading, you are appreciated. Blessings on your day.