I'm sitting at the dining room table, catching up on some work and trying to savor my cup of coffee. There's no school today and I am steeling myself for the inevitable nonstop bickering between my kids. The two oldest are up, playing in Noah's room until they migrate into their playroom. I hear Noah, frustrated with the drawing activity on his Leapster, proclaim, "Zoe! I'm trying to draw you a Zebra but I just cant do it!" You see, little brother knows his sister's favorite animal has always been a Zebra. He's trying so hard to do something nice for her. Zoe, with patience that would rival most adults, responds like this,"That's okay. Maybe you should try to draw something you know how to draw, like a dog. You draw great dogs." Just like that, Noah's frustration melts away.
I marvel at the relationship my kids have with one another. They bicker so much. They yell, fight, sometimes hit (always an "accident" of course), and make one another cry more than any two people I know. However, they also comfort, soothe, encourage, and support one another in ways that warm this mom's heart. The picture below is one of my all time favorites. I had been trying to get a good picture of the kids in their Fourth of July outfits. Zoe was not feeling it. She was upset and frustrated about something I obviously didn't understand. Noah probably didn't understand either. However, his reaction to his sister was different than that of an aggravated mother. He grabbed her in a huge, genuine hug, and her reaction was just picture perfect. With that act, that love he showed her, Noah was able to turn the day around for all of us.
Our church is in the middle of a sermon series on friendship so I've been thinking a lot about what makes a good friend. Honestly folks, good friends are hard to come by. There aren't always very many people with whom we feel completely comfortable around. People that take us as we are, "wart's and all" and love us unconditionally. People who are honest and loving at the same time.
Zach and I understand that the path we've chosen in life, being a pastor in the United Methodist Church, means that we will move probably more often than we will like. I worry sometimes about how this lifestyle will affect our children. Seeing moments like I witnessed this morning, my kids truly being each other's best friends, eases my heart somewhat. I think we would all consider ourselves blessed indeed to have a friend like they have found in one another.
May we also take the time to consider, "How have I been a friend to someone lately." What act of genuine love and support have you shown to someone recently? I know I could take a lesson from my kids today.
Blessings to you and yours, thanks for reading.
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Tuesday, September 22, 2015
Thursday, August 14, 2014
Tears happen...
I've been anticipating this week for a while now. Why? School started! Don't get me wrong, I love having my kids at home and I love being able to stay home with them. However, school starting means Zoe gets to be around other kids, something my little social bug needs. School means getting into a routine and having days with purpose. School means quieter mornings and no arguing for several hours. School means Zoe gets an opportunity to meet and make friends in this new town, this new neighborhood, this new school.
I thought I was prepared. I thought I anticipated those things that could go wrong and dampen the excitement of the first day of school. Silly mom... All it took was a shoe that didn't fit right, then a brush that was missing. Soon my happy, excited little girl was in tears. It took all we had to try and get those tears to stop, and when we finally succeeded they started back up again when Zoe thought she might be late on her first day. Finally Zach took a weepy girl and they started the walk to school, leaving an emotional and sad mother behind. Sad because my girls first morning back to school was rougher than it should of been. Sad because, for the first time, I didn't get my "back to school" pictures. Sad because, with the drama, I didn't get to properly say my "goodbyes" and "have a great first day" like I wanted to. I felt like I failed my daughter.
I was eager to go and pick up my new second grader and see how her day ended up. She had a good day. She made a new friend. Her teacher was nice. "She was very good today," her teacher said. "She's a quiet little girl, isn't she?"
What?? Zoe? Quiet? Um, no.... I've never, ever, known her to be quiet. It occurred to me then, that we hadn't acknowledged enough how difficult the move and all that it entails has been on her. Zoe has always been our resilient child, the one we never worried about fitting in with others. She is sensitive, cries easily, so it never really occurred to me that she may have been scared or nervous. She would always tell us if she were, so this time I never thought about it. Perhaps the tears weren't because of not liking the shoes or fear of being late, but stemmed from something else. Something I hadn't anticipated from this child.
My little girl is growing up. She is coming out of the stage where I knew always what she was thinking, when she was scared, because she would tell me. Sigh. Parenting just got a little bit harder.
We did take Zoe to the bookstore for her "back to school book." She picked out another Junie B. Jones book. She was happy, for a while. The stress of the day came back again later and she had a melt down of emotions. This morning was a little better. Things still weren't as smooth as we would like, that will take time I guess. I will have to remind myself often to be more aware of the things she's not telling us. Both Zach and I need to be better at seeing the whole picture, try to see it how Zoe sees it.
Isn't that what we always need to be doing? Seeing all people through eyes without boundaries, to try and see what they aren't showing us, to better understand why they react the way they react? We never stop trying to figure things out, do we?
I thought I was prepared. I thought I anticipated those things that could go wrong and dampen the excitement of the first day of school. Silly mom... All it took was a shoe that didn't fit right, then a brush that was missing. Soon my happy, excited little girl was in tears. It took all we had to try and get those tears to stop, and when we finally succeeded they started back up again when Zoe thought she might be late on her first day. Finally Zach took a weepy girl and they started the walk to school, leaving an emotional and sad mother behind. Sad because my girls first morning back to school was rougher than it should of been. Sad because, for the first time, I didn't get my "back to school" pictures. Sad because, with the drama, I didn't get to properly say my "goodbyes" and "have a great first day" like I wanted to. I felt like I failed my daughter.
I was eager to go and pick up my new second grader and see how her day ended up. She had a good day. She made a new friend. Her teacher was nice. "She was very good today," her teacher said. "She's a quiet little girl, isn't she?"
What?? Zoe? Quiet? Um, no.... I've never, ever, known her to be quiet. It occurred to me then, that we hadn't acknowledged enough how difficult the move and all that it entails has been on her. Zoe has always been our resilient child, the one we never worried about fitting in with others. She is sensitive, cries easily, so it never really occurred to me that she may have been scared or nervous. She would always tell us if she were, so this time I never thought about it. Perhaps the tears weren't because of not liking the shoes or fear of being late, but stemmed from something else. Something I hadn't anticipated from this child.
My little girl is growing up. She is coming out of the stage where I knew always what she was thinking, when she was scared, because she would tell me. Sigh. Parenting just got a little bit harder.
We did take Zoe to the bookstore for her "back to school book." She picked out another Junie B. Jones book. She was happy, for a while. The stress of the day came back again later and she had a melt down of emotions. This morning was a little better. Things still weren't as smooth as we would like, that will take time I guess. I will have to remind myself often to be more aware of the things she's not telling us. Both Zach and I need to be better at seeing the whole picture, try to see it how Zoe sees it.
Isn't that what we always need to be doing? Seeing all people through eyes without boundaries, to try and see what they aren't showing us, to better understand why they react the way they react? We never stop trying to figure things out, do we?
Her Daddy finally was able to coax a smile from her.
Book time!
Tuesday, April 22, 2014
Let Me Tell You a Story...
Today was much like most of our days lately. Not great, not terrible, just another day to get through. Zoe had art after school, which is nice for us because the fights with her brother were delayed an hour. When Zach brought her home I ask the standard question: "How was your day at school," followed by "what color did you get on?" Once again my little talker got in trouble for gabbing when she wasn't supposed to. It's an affliction I suppose. Not one that I have but she comes by it honestly. I try really hard not to get too upset with her. Mentally, I'm counting down the minutes until I can put them all to bed and relax in bed with a cup of tea and a book.
Feed the kids. Clean the kids. Put Squishy to bed. Read Noah a story and put him to bed. Next comes Zoe.
I find her in her room laying in bed reading a "Jack and Annie" book as she calls them. Specifically she's reading Magic Tree House No. 49. "Zoe, is that the same book that your daddy and I read to you?"
She responds, "Yes, I'm reading it again. Will you read some to me?"
I agree to read to her but only if she agrees to reading a different book. Going to her shelf I pick up the first book I bought her, back when I was still pregnant and had recently discovered we were having a girl. I'd been waiting for her to be ready to read this book, as it has always been my favorite.
"What about this one? It's called, The Secret Garden."
With eagerness, she bounced beside me as I showed her the cover and turned to the first page. As I read she would ask questions: "What's a veranda? What is cholera? What does it mean by a 'sour expression?'"
Somewhere around page two Noah appears at the foot of the bed, laying quietly as I read. We get to the end of the first chapter. More questions follow, this time inquiring about the future of little Mary and why is the book called "Secret Garden?"
Finally I am able to shepherd Noah back to bed and when I return to check on Zoe I find her once again with her "Jack and Annie" book open in her lap. "I just want to read a little while."
Thirty minutes later I return to find her in much the same way and hear, "Just one more page!" Okay. Who am I to say no to that? When she is finished she comes to me. "I read two chapters tonight," she explains. "Books are my favorite thing. You must take care of them."
Yes! This is my daughter after all! When I am finally able to get her in bed I sat quietly, book in my hand, beaming with pride. Maybe "pride" isn't the right word. It's more like "Love." I've always loved Zoe. I always will. Seeing her find joy in something I love, like books, just makes it that much greater, if that's possible.
My little girl is growing up. Most of the time, that thought makes my chest tighten as I mentally try to slow time, but moments like tonight make me excited to see the woman my daughter will become.
Feed the kids. Clean the kids. Put Squishy to bed. Read Noah a story and put him to bed. Next comes Zoe.
I find her in her room laying in bed reading a "Jack and Annie" book as she calls them. Specifically she's reading Magic Tree House No. 49. "Zoe, is that the same book that your daddy and I read to you?"
She responds, "Yes, I'm reading it again. Will you read some to me?"
I agree to read to her but only if she agrees to reading a different book. Going to her shelf I pick up the first book I bought her, back when I was still pregnant and had recently discovered we were having a girl. I'd been waiting for her to be ready to read this book, as it has always been my favorite.
"What about this one? It's called, The Secret Garden."
With eagerness, she bounced beside me as I showed her the cover and turned to the first page. As I read she would ask questions: "What's a veranda? What is cholera? What does it mean by a 'sour expression?'"
Somewhere around page two Noah appears at the foot of the bed, laying quietly as I read. We get to the end of the first chapter. More questions follow, this time inquiring about the future of little Mary and why is the book called "Secret Garden?"
Finally I am able to shepherd Noah back to bed and when I return to check on Zoe I find her once again with her "Jack and Annie" book open in her lap. "I just want to read a little while."
Thirty minutes later I return to find her in much the same way and hear, "Just one more page!" Okay. Who am I to say no to that? When she is finished she comes to me. "I read two chapters tonight," she explains. "Books are my favorite thing. You must take care of them."
Yes! This is my daughter after all! When I am finally able to get her in bed I sat quietly, book in my hand, beaming with pride. Maybe "pride" isn't the right word. It's more like "Love." I've always loved Zoe. I always will. Seeing her find joy in something I love, like books, just makes it that much greater, if that's possible.
My little girl is growing up. Most of the time, that thought makes my chest tighten as I mentally try to slow time, but moments like tonight make me excited to see the woman my daughter will become.
Thursday, May 30, 2013
Afternoon project
Zach is spending the week at Annual Conference so the kids and I hitched a ride and came to visit family while he's gone. It's been nice to see everyone but the days have been a little long with everyone having to work. I decided to use this afternoon to do a project I've been meaning to do for a while.
Back when I first joined Pinterest I came across a picture of a little girl photographed in her mother's wedding dress and just fell in love with the idea. My wedding dress is at my parents house and every time we have come I have returned home kicking myself that I didn't take Zoe's picture in it. Today I decided to just go for it. I still don't have tons of energy (some of that the result of a three week old that thinks sleeping is for chumps) so I didn't plan the shoot as well as I would of liked. I considered doing Zoe's hair up fancy but in the end I kind of liked the innocence of her pigtails. Here are some of the pictures:
Again, not the greatest, but she enjoyed taking them and I will be glad to have them one day. Not a bad way to spend an afternoon!
Blessings to you all!
Back when I first joined Pinterest I came across a picture of a little girl photographed in her mother's wedding dress and just fell in love with the idea. My wedding dress is at my parents house and every time we have come I have returned home kicking myself that I didn't take Zoe's picture in it. Today I decided to just go for it. I still don't have tons of energy (some of that the result of a three week old that thinks sleeping is for chumps) so I didn't plan the shoot as well as I would of liked. I considered doing Zoe's hair up fancy but in the end I kind of liked the innocence of her pigtails. Here are some of the pictures:
Again, not the greatest, but she enjoyed taking them and I will be glad to have them one day. Not a bad way to spend an afternoon!
Blessings to you all!
Friday, August 17, 2012
Growing Pains...
Today the Bechtold Family reached a milestone. It was Zoe's first day of Kindergarten. It seems like yesterday I was thinking, after seeing posts from friends on Facebook about their little ones first day of school, that I don't know what I'll do when it's Zoe's first day. All of a sudden my little girl isn't so little anymore.
School in Las Cruces is a little different than in other places we have lived. School for the other kids began on Wednesday. The school has what's called "Kinder Transition Day" for the Kindergarten kids. On Wednesday afternoon we dropped Noah off at our friend Stuart's house and Zoe and I headed up to her new school. We had packed up Zoe's new Hello Kitty backpack with her new school supplies and she so very bravely marched into her new classroom. She shook her teacher's hand and when a comment was made about Zoe's blue eyes, she proudly proclaimed,"They're my Daddy's eyes!"
Our transition day only included 6 other students and before long Zoe was in a very animated conversation with the little girl sitting next to her while they did their craft. So quickly and easily does she make friends. We were able to tour the school, fill out the pile of paperwork, and get "tested" all in one afternoon. If possible, Zoe left that afternoon even more excited to start school than before.
Transition day.
Noah takes posing lessons from sister.
The first real day of school started this morning, on a Friday. I woke up first, put the cinnamon toast in the oven, fixed the chocolate milk, cut up the strawberries, and then went and woke up Zoe. Zoe is our little morning person. She jumps out of bed, no matter what the time, like she's coming off the bench in a basketball game.
After breakfast, getting dressed, and taking the standard "first day of school pictures" we all loaded up and drove the 15 minutes to Zoe's school. We no sooner walked up that she was off playing in the playground and once again, making new friends. In fact we had to call her back over just so Mommy and Daddy could say their goodbyes. After our hugs and kisses, Zoe ran off to play some more before the bell rang and Mommy and Daddy wiped their tears away. It was so much harder on us than her.
First day picture.
So happy...
For the rest of the day I kept my eye on the clock. I would say to myself, "Zoe's in the cafeteria now, eating lunch like a big girl," or "I wonder what Zoe's learning right now." I couldn't wait for 2:30 to come around.
Finally the time came and we were waiting outside for her to come bounding out exclaiming about what a great day she had. Noah was just as excited to see her than I was, happily taking her hand as we walked back to the car. We promptly left and took Zoe to Barnes and Noble to pick out her "first day of school book," a tradition we are starting this year, and then took her to her choice of restaurant for an early supper (she chose Olive Garden, big surprise there). After the meal we went to Hastings and picked out a movie for the evening. I couldn't keep count of how many times she, with obvious joy, shouted, "This is just the best day ever!"
A new tradition begins.
Zoe's selection. This was a very difficult decision.
Zoe's favorite restaurant.
I am so proud of my darling girl. I don't know that I could be anymore proud of her than I am. She is so much what I wish I could be, every day. Joyous, happy, sensitive, thoughtful, and curious, among other things. It's hard, seeing her so big, so smart, and not get misty eyed, but I know she is growing into such a lovely person, capable of doing so much good. I will try not to mourn her "babyhood" (if that's such a word) and instead delight in how well she's growing up...
Praying you all are as blessed as I feel today...
Wednesday, July 18, 2012
Another day, another lesson to learn...
The Bechtolds had a great vacation. It wasn't very long but it sure did pack a punch. We swung by Plainview on our way home and left the kids at the grandparents before heading back to Las Cruces. I miss them but we sure are enjoying the peace and quiet. The test is to see if I can use this time productively instead of napping all day like I want to. Yawn...
During our vacation we were able to attend a Rockies game, something Zach has always wanted to do. We had a lovely time and the kids did great. Noah, once plied with sugar, really got into the game, cheering and waving his rally towel like a pro. Zoe did good but got bored with the game and looked for other ways to entertain herself. Zoe had a nice older woman sitting next to her that would smile time to time at the children's antics. Before long Zoe was sitting there, talking like she is prone to do, asking a million and one questions of this poor, unsuspecting woman. After a while of her just nodding her head to Zoe's queries she leaned over to Zach, and in heavily accented English, haltingly said,"I don't speak English." Embarrassed Zach tried his best to put a halt in Zoe's barrage of questions.
Sweet girl, never has she met a stranger. She has her moments of shyness, certainly, but all in all she is open to anyone. I'm not so open. It's difficult for me to speak to others and to do so without reserve. More often than not when I try and force myself to get out of my box I end up regretting most of what I said. It's safer for me and my mouth to be reserved when I'm around those who may not know me well.
There have been many times that I have been amazed at Zoe's openness and willingness to befriend anyone. I recall a trip to Walmart that ended in Zoe standing hand-in-hand with a little Hispanic girl who loudly proclaimed her daddy was in prison. Although slightly confused by what this "prison" thing was, it did not deter Zoe from inviting this girl over to her house someday.
Those things that may keep me from reaching out to another is so insignificant to my five year old. Those fears and worries that plague my thoughts aren't present in hers. She sees people as just that, people. People like her.
I wish I were more like my kids. Honestly, I can learn so much from them and I hope and pray that my own shortcomings do not rub off too much on them.
May you all take notice of the blessings surrounding you today.
During our vacation we were able to attend a Rockies game, something Zach has always wanted to do. We had a lovely time and the kids did great. Noah, once plied with sugar, really got into the game, cheering and waving his rally towel like a pro. Zoe did good but got bored with the game and looked for other ways to entertain herself. Zoe had a nice older woman sitting next to her that would smile time to time at the children's antics. Before long Zoe was sitting there, talking like she is prone to do, asking a million and one questions of this poor, unsuspecting woman. After a while of her just nodding her head to Zoe's queries she leaned over to Zach, and in heavily accented English, haltingly said,"I don't speak English." Embarrassed Zach tried his best to put a halt in Zoe's barrage of questions.
Sweet girl, never has she met a stranger. She has her moments of shyness, certainly, but all in all she is open to anyone. I'm not so open. It's difficult for me to speak to others and to do so without reserve. More often than not when I try and force myself to get out of my box I end up regretting most of what I said. It's safer for me and my mouth to be reserved when I'm around those who may not know me well.
There have been many times that I have been amazed at Zoe's openness and willingness to befriend anyone. I recall a trip to Walmart that ended in Zoe standing hand-in-hand with a little Hispanic girl who loudly proclaimed her daddy was in prison. Although slightly confused by what this "prison" thing was, it did not deter Zoe from inviting this girl over to her house someday.
Those things that may keep me from reaching out to another is so insignificant to my five year old. Those fears and worries that plague my thoughts aren't present in hers. She sees people as just that, people. People like her.
I wish I were more like my kids. Honestly, I can learn so much from them and I hope and pray that my own shortcomings do not rub off too much on them.
May you all take notice of the blessings surrounding you today.
Admittedly blurry pic showing the kids cheering along.
Saturday, June 23, 2012
Memories made...
Yesterday morning I had great plans for our day. Funny thing about kids, they don't care about your plans.
Zach got a bug in him that he needed to get a new pillow so we decided to head to the mall, grab lunch there, and then go rent a movie from Red Box. We got to the mall and was picking out a pillow when Noah decided to throw a monster 2 year old tantrum. Moments earlier he had been smiling and laughing, even prompting an older woman to walk by and tell us what a little gentleman he was and how she could just snatch him up. He began screaming and before I knew it he was running down the aisle. I leave Zach and Zoe to check out and begin the chase. I literally chased that little monster around the entire store, all while he was screaming as loud as his little lungs could allow. Finally I catch up to him and he goes boneless. After struggling for a few minutes I am able to wrangle him into my arms and he continues to fight me and scream. I am beyond frustrated. I go and grab Zoe from Zach, who is still in line to check-out, and announce we are headed to the car (much to the relief of every person in the store, I'm sure). I see the woman who commented on wanting to take Noah with her and she wont meet my eye. At this point she could of made me a very reasonable offer and I would of been tempted.
This guy...
We get in the car and once Zach gets there I tell him that I have reached my limits and it would be better to just go home and abandon all of our plans. Noah continues to scream until we pull into our neighborhood, where he becomes quite pleasant once again. Sigh...
We put the kids down for naps and crash out in front of the tv. At this point I am wary of continuing on with the plans I had for a family movie night. The patience I was forced to exercise in the mall has taken it's toll on me. However, one look at my sweet daughter playing quietly changes my mind. Plan on!
I have seen on Pinterest, in a couple of places actually, the idea to create a drive-in movie experience in your living room. You can see one here and how far the idea can be taken. We decided to keep it simple.
Zoe and I went to the garage and selected two big boxes, took them to the living room, and set about decorating them. Zoe LOVED this and commented several times about how she was "just so happy." Zach even got in the spirit and helped Zoe while I decorated Noah's box, as he was sleeping off the crankiness.
Zoe decorates her chick-mobile.
Zoe wanted her car to be a "girly" car and only pink and purple colors were allowed. She drew windows on the inside of her box and clouds in the windows. After the wheels were glued on she went and grabbed blankets and pillows and we made her "car" as comfy as possible. When Noah woke up we all went to Walgreens for junk food and a movie. Zoe decided the perfect movie snacks were popcorn, M&Ms, and Sprite. I also grabbed a package of cookies to balance everything out.
All in all it was a great evening. Noah loved sitting in his car as much as sister did. They both enjoyed the movie and went to bed full of sugar.
Notice the M&M beard.
I'm glad that, even though my day didn't go as planned, I decided to continue on with this idea. This past week I read an article (here) about a little baby with days to live. As a memorial to this baby, his parents requested that parents everywhere serve banana splits for dinner to their kids. In other words, give their kids a moment to remember, even if it's not healthy. It's a way to enjoy the moment and not take any day for granted. I must admit that was my inspiration for this evening of junk food, tv, and cardboard cars.
At the end of the day the tantrum at the store seemed trivial. These moments at the end, the simple pleasures of a evening at home with my beautiful family, that's what will stick with us.
May you all do something today worth remembering...
Friday, May 11, 2012
Zoe Noel
Today is Zoe's birthday. Just like I did with Noah I thought I would take this time to document her birth story.
Being pregnant with Zoe was a trial. I had morning sickness before I knew I was pregnant and the intense nausea lasted the entire pregnancy. I couldn't even think about food without getting sick. I tried everything to make it better. Finally, my mom found biobands online and ordered me some. Though it didn't eliminate my sickness I did find relief enough to eat.
I remember with clarity the day we found out Zoe was a girl. Zach was certain we would have a boy. He was counting on having a boy. When we went in for the ultrasound I was looking at my husband instead of the screen when the doctor made that announcement. The look of horror on Zach's face was so clear. We got in the car after the appointment and sat in silence. I was secretly ecstatic but I could tell Zach wasn't so much. It took a while but finally he got over some of his fears.
The morning of the day Zoe made her arrival Zach got up early and left for work. I was a week before my due date. I was awoken by a phone call from my former boss asking if I would come back to work for him after the baby was born if he allowed me to work part-time. Still laying in bed I called my mom to tell her that news. I was feeling good, energetic, ready to take on the world and get cracking on that to-do list I wanted to complete before baby arrived. I got out of bed to hop in the shower and my water broke. Immediately I called Zach and couldn't reach him. Then I called my mom. "Mom, I think my water just broke." Mom: "What do you mean you think?! Call the doctor!"
I called my doctor and was told to get to the hospital and then tried calling Zach again. Finally I tracked him down and told him that today we were having a baby. While waiting for him to get here I checked my bag, gathered my toiletries and was thinking about taking a shower when Zach arrived. Zach came home: "What are you doing? We have to get going!" Me: "I want to shower first." Zach: "Are you crazy? We are having a baby! We have to get going!!"
Yeah, we lived about 1 minute from the hospital. I was having no contractions. I didn't get my shower...
Once in the hospital they started me on pitocin since I was not dilated or having any other labor symptoms. Holy Cow, when those contractions started! Labor was hard and I had problems delivering Zoe. My last push was going to be my last regardless if she came or not. Zoe Noel Bechtold was born that evening at around 6:30. Her little head was blistered from the vacuum and I was completely exhausted. I had to stay in the delivery room much longer than usual because I kept losing consciousness and I didn't get to hold my daughter until the next day. I also didn't get to have my shower until the next evening.
The first two weeks of precious Zoe's life was (I hate to admit) the hardest days of my life. I was having a difficult recovery, I wasn't producing enough milk to satisfy Zoe, and she never stopped crying. I went days without any sleep and I truly experienced post-partum depression before we got her feedings figured out and things levelled out.
Those two weeks of misery now seem trivial when I look into my love's face. She was a very good baby. Very happy, always smiling. I can't imagine what my life would be life without her in it.
Five years later I can see the young woman my daughter is going to grow into be. She is so compassionate, empathizing with everyone she encounters. She is dramatic, feeling things so intensely. She is stubborn, refusing to budge on what she thinks. She is so much like her mother.
I am so proud of Zoe. I can't wait to see her continue to mature and blossom. Happy birthday, my sweet, loving, silly girl. I love you!
Being pregnant with Zoe was a trial. I had morning sickness before I knew I was pregnant and the intense nausea lasted the entire pregnancy. I couldn't even think about food without getting sick. I tried everything to make it better. Finally, my mom found biobands online and ordered me some. Though it didn't eliminate my sickness I did find relief enough to eat.
I remember with clarity the day we found out Zoe was a girl. Zach was certain we would have a boy. He was counting on having a boy. When we went in for the ultrasound I was looking at my husband instead of the screen when the doctor made that announcement. The look of horror on Zach's face was so clear. We got in the car after the appointment and sat in silence. I was secretly ecstatic but I could tell Zach wasn't so much. It took a while but finally he got over some of his fears.
The morning of the day Zoe made her arrival Zach got up early and left for work. I was a week before my due date. I was awoken by a phone call from my former boss asking if I would come back to work for him after the baby was born if he allowed me to work part-time. Still laying in bed I called my mom to tell her that news. I was feeling good, energetic, ready to take on the world and get cracking on that to-do list I wanted to complete before baby arrived. I got out of bed to hop in the shower and my water broke. Immediately I called Zach and couldn't reach him. Then I called my mom. "Mom, I think my water just broke." Mom: "What do you mean you think?! Call the doctor!"
I called my doctor and was told to get to the hospital and then tried calling Zach again. Finally I tracked him down and told him that today we were having a baby. While waiting for him to get here I checked my bag, gathered my toiletries and was thinking about taking a shower when Zach arrived. Zach came home: "What are you doing? We have to get going!" Me: "I want to shower first." Zach: "Are you crazy? We are having a baby! We have to get going!!"
Yeah, we lived about 1 minute from the hospital. I was having no contractions. I didn't get my shower...
Once in the hospital they started me on pitocin since I was not dilated or having any other labor symptoms. Holy Cow, when those contractions started! Labor was hard and I had problems delivering Zoe. My last push was going to be my last regardless if she came or not. Zoe Noel Bechtold was born that evening at around 6:30. Her little head was blistered from the vacuum and I was completely exhausted. I had to stay in the delivery room much longer than usual because I kept losing consciousness and I didn't get to hold my daughter until the next day. I also didn't get to have my shower until the next evening.
The first two weeks of precious Zoe's life was (I hate to admit) the hardest days of my life. I was having a difficult recovery, I wasn't producing enough milk to satisfy Zoe, and she never stopped crying. I went days without any sleep and I truly experienced post-partum depression before we got her feedings figured out and things levelled out.
Those two weeks of misery now seem trivial when I look into my love's face. She was a very good baby. Very happy, always smiling. I can't imagine what my life would be life without her in it.
Five years later I can see the young woman my daughter is going to grow into be. She is so compassionate, empathizing with everyone she encounters. She is dramatic, feeling things so intensely. She is stubborn, refusing to budge on what she thinks. She is so much like her mother.
I am so proud of Zoe. I can't wait to see her continue to mature and blossom. Happy birthday, my sweet, loving, silly girl. I love you!
Zoe one day old.
Happy Zoe at 2 months.
Little diva.
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
Finding Comfort
I have spoken before of my back problems. Basically what it comes down to is that I have back pain which is aggravated by certain activities. I try to stay away from those triggers but, being a mom of 2 little ones, it doesn't always happen. The information that I have received is that the only medical solution for my back is medication, not something I'm ready to do yet. So, when it gets bad enough, the only thing that helps is rest. This was my Monday and most of today. Not fun and my house is a mess but I have enjoyed my Friends marathon (PIVOT, PIVOT).
I tell you this because I wanted to tell you all about what a wonderful family I have. I mean, that's not news, they are usually great, but it's times like these that I can see the extra effort they make in order to help me feel better. For example:
Zoe has a little stuffed pony. It was a gift that spent the first few months in our home stuffed in some box in the closet. During a day of cleaning Zoe rediscovered this pony and it has not left her side since. Most days she even takes it to school where it spends the afternoon soaking up knowledge in Zoe's cubby. Bedtime can not be achieved until pony (Rainbow Dash if you are on a first name basis with her) is right where she belongs. To say Zoe loves her pony is an understatement. My first morning laid up in bed my precious daughter brought me her pony. She said,"Mommy, Pony always makes me feel better and I want you to feel better so I am going to let you have her." Zoe tucked pony in right next to me, kissed me on the check and patted me on the head. Pony stayed by my side until bedtime. To give Zoe credit, she brought me a "substitution" animal before she took Pony to her bed for the night.
As parents we feel we are always in the comforting role. Mommy's kisses are what make anything feel better (well, that and a band-aid). What we never think of is how those hugs and kisses from our precious little-ones are just as therapeutic. My back is by no means healed, but the actions of my sweet little family certainly comforted me.
Blessings to you on this beautiful day.
I tell you this because I wanted to tell you all about what a wonderful family I have. I mean, that's not news, they are usually great, but it's times like these that I can see the extra effort they make in order to help me feel better. For example:
Zoe has a little stuffed pony. It was a gift that spent the first few months in our home stuffed in some box in the closet. During a day of cleaning Zoe rediscovered this pony and it has not left her side since. Most days she even takes it to school where it spends the afternoon soaking up knowledge in Zoe's cubby. Bedtime can not be achieved until pony (Rainbow Dash if you are on a first name basis with her) is right where she belongs. To say Zoe loves her pony is an understatement. My first morning laid up in bed my precious daughter brought me her pony. She said,"Mommy, Pony always makes me feel better and I want you to feel better so I am going to let you have her." Zoe tucked pony in right next to me, kissed me on the check and patted me on the head. Pony stayed by my side until bedtime. To give Zoe credit, she brought me a "substitution" animal before she took Pony to her bed for the night.
Pony and my little fashionista...
As parents we feel we are always in the comforting role. Mommy's kisses are what make anything feel better (well, that and a band-aid). What we never think of is how those hugs and kisses from our precious little-ones are just as therapeutic. My back is by no means healed, but the actions of my sweet little family certainly comforted me.
Blessings to you on this beautiful day.
Thursday, October 20, 2011
Insanity is genetic, right?
Thursdays are typically the only day of the week that I am home alone with both kids. The rest of the week Zoe goes to work with Zach and then to school in the afternoon. On Thursdays, as soon as Noah goes down for his nap, I try to do something with Zoe, be it school work or a game. Today I decided to try for an art project. For full details of my project feel free to cruise on over to my craft blog : uncraftywoman.blogspot.com. Otherwise, here's a picture of Zoe painting:
There are moments when my kids do or say something so out there I wonder where they got their cookyness...then I remember....
There are moments when my kids do or say something so out there I wonder where they got their cookyness...then I remember....
Monday, August 15, 2011
When time flies...
Today Zoe started back at school after nearly a year of just mommy time. I was a little worried at first as to how she would handle the transition. I shouldn't have worried at all because she LOVED it and did very well this first day. She is only going Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday afternoons right now but it's better than nothing at all. Zach came and picked her up at his lunch break and she was very ready to go.
We had to get a picture with Daddy.
I instructed Daddy to get a picture of Zoe in front of the preschool sign, which he lovingly obliged.
Zoe had a great day. She found three feathers during their outside time, that she kindly shared with her new friends, and, to quote the little darling, "WE HAD SNACKS!" Yes, in all caps, because, my ears are probably still bleeding from the high volume. Noah and I went and picked up Zach at work and we all went to pick her up then to McDonald's for smoothies as a special treat. Zoe is ready to go back tomorrow! Hard to believe that next year she will be in Kindergarten. Yikes!
We had to get a picture with Daddy.
I instructed Daddy to get a picture of Zoe in front of the preschool sign, which he lovingly obliged.
Zoe had a great day. She found three feathers during their outside time, that she kindly shared with her new friends, and, to quote the little darling, "WE HAD SNACKS!" Yes, in all caps, because, my ears are probably still bleeding from the high volume. Noah and I went and picked up Zach at work and we all went to pick her up then to McDonald's for smoothies as a special treat. Zoe is ready to go back tomorrow! Hard to believe that next year she will be in Kindergarten. Yikes!
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Don't you just love that feeling of coming off a great, productive weekend? It's a kinda "high on life" feeling. It seems as most of my weekends leave me feeling "high on life." I am extremely blessed, and even on my darkest of moments, I realize how lucky I am to have a wonderful husband and two lovely children, not to mention a host of great friends and extended family. I have the sense of security enough that even when faced with uncertainty of the future, such as moving to a new state to a new job, I know that I have all I could possibly need, right here, in my arms...
On the news front today was the last Sunday for the kids at Tapp. Zoe got a stuffed kitten from her SS teacher name "Mr. Whiskers" after a character in their curriculum. She loves it. This afternoon she had a friend come over to play and they had the best time. Big goodbye hugs were given at end. I'm so proud of how well Zoe is handling this move, even if she doesn't fully comprehend what is happening. Both kids will be heading to Plainview sometime within the next week. I am so going to miss them but am looking forward to having sometime to myself to devote to cleaning and packing. I get overwhelmed when I go over my mental list of "to-dos" and will need that uninterrupted time to get everything done.
Time to log off now and get the kids down for bed. Blessings to you all...
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
James 1 1:18
Thanks to my Husband for the above scripture. What struck me most about it is that we can ask God for anything and everything but if we don't know Him we wont even realize when he answers our prayers. I have never liked the expression of "Let go and Let God." God wants us to be proactive. We are constantly being pulled in so many directions in this world, evil is at every turn, even when we think we are doing good and where we are supposed to be, evil is there. We have to constantly be on alert if we wish to do God's will for us. We aren't to worry about that which we can not change but if we just "let go" then we can loose the ability to hear what God is telling us. It's very easy to become complacent. Just my two cents.
On another note -
Today I asked Zoe to put some shoes on and go get the paper. She responded with, "I was planning to. It was on my list. It was right after going potty." Hehe...who knew she was so organized ;)
Also, Noah took a step today. Just one and then he sat down. I don't even think he realized he did it. Mom hopes he can hold off walking until they come next week so they can witness it. Crazy that Easter is in 2 weeks!
Thankful for many things today, including Benadryl and coffee....
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Long time no blog...
So today Zach informed me that I needed to update the blog so I'll do as told. Christmas was great but we are glad it's over. Zoe enjoyed unwrapping the gifts and really dug everything she got. Work is good but busy as usual. Yesterday we got a new dog. Our dog Ranger had to be put to sleep in November. Our other dog Thor has been very lonely, to the point of wasting away to nothing. We finally found a good dog that we could afford so Zoe, me and our friend Sarah Ballard went and got him yesterday. He's part schnauzer and part beagle, or schneagle. We named him Burton Guster. Zoe calls him "my puppy" and is very protective of him. Anyway, that's all the time I have for now. Peace..
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Halloween and such..
Hey guys! Well November is here and it's hard to believe that Thanksgiving is just around the corner. This is one of my favorite time of the year. I LOVE Thanksgiving. We had a good Halloween. We went trick or treating with our friends the Schricks and their little one Abby. Abby is two weeks younger than Zoe so they make good friends. I add some pictures of the cute little ones. Tomorrow Zach and our friend Travis leave for Comic Con in Dallas. We kid them about being dorks but I know they will have tons of fun. We have been busy with HOPE, the after school program at church. It's a real blessing to see how these kids are being positively affected. Okay, that's all I have time for right now. Peace.
Abby (Dorothy) and Zoe (puppy) at the Schricks house.
Zach and Zoe at the Ballard's house. They weren't there so we took pictures.
Monday, October 13, 2008
Fall is here!!
Hey guys! I hope everyone is doing well! We have been great and busy as usual. We had a great weekend. It started off Friday. I was hope sick and Zach got to be my substitute. He seemed to enjoy himself and I appreciate the fact that now he knows what my days are like. He's such a great husband. Saturday we had Karate and then went to Grams and Granddads to see their new baby donkey. Zoe enjoyed seeing the baby. Then we went and watched our "Aunt" Erin march in the Plainview Marching Festival. She and the rest of the band did a great job. I'll attach some pictures for you to enjoy.

Here's Zach and Zoe. Zoe is doing one of her new favorite activity which is flashing her belly. Zach hopes she grows out of it very soon.
Paige, Grams, Zach and Zoe looking at the donkeys.
Granddad is allowed to get close to the new donkey, only one day old in this picture. So cute.
Zoe enjoyed it.
Zoe loved watching the band and hearing the music.

Wednesday, September 17, 2008
New Pictures
So things are still super busy but life is good. Zoe is so much fun and even though I work more and we have more stuff going on I feel like we are spending more quality time as a family. I'm adding more photos some from my birthday that was at the end of August and some of Zoe last week at the church in Zach's office.
Here we are at Chilis for a surprise dinner with the Loewens and the Shricks.
Here's my free chocolate milkshake. Yummy.
Here's Zoe playing with her phone. She was talking to puppy. It was very serious.
And here's Zoe picking out which wii game to play. She likes wii.
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Nothing Continued
Okay, so I finally had time to continue with the last post so here goes:

Zoe loves to climb up on the couch.
Zoe cheesing.
Saturday Keith threw a birthday party for Kristy. Zoe loved to climb up on the window sill.

Here's Zoe and her cousin Justin.
Okay, that's all I have for now!! Go USA!!

Zoe loves to climb up on the couch.
Zoe cheesing.
Saturday Keith threw a birthday party for Kristy. Zoe loved to climb up on the window sill.
Here's Zoe and her cousin Justin.
Okay, that's all I have for now!! Go USA!!
Monday, August 11, 2008
Nothing new news
Hello all! Well we have been busy doing nothing and I haven't had much to blog about. However I do have some pictures
to share.
to share.
Last Thursday night we went to Zach's parents house. Here's Zoe playing outside with Grams.
Zach gave Maggie a bath and a hair cut later which Zoe found fascinating.
Then we found the wagon and had to try it out.
Later we had a great time putting on and wearing Daddy's Rockies Hat.
I have more pictures to add but must go for now. My Monday Night Walking Group is arriving!!
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